It’s been two years, Darl.
And I’ve been doing this every year since you left me forever.
“I’m fine, you don’t have to worry.”
Every single year.
“I try to be fine without you, so please don’t worry about me any longer.”
The same words…
The same lies…
I keep saying it as if you would hear me.
On your birthday
our anniversary
or the day of your death.
I tried to be okay, seriously.
But everything seems different without you.
The world I’m living in,
This world without you by my side.
It is much harder
I feel nasty to keep saving a place
For you -and your stupid hats.
For you -and our memories
For you -and wish upon the star
wish that someday
perhaps
you’ll back, and hug me
and say that it’s okay.
It’s okay, Babe. I’m here with you.
Still hoping for the dead man to come back
While I hug another man who is alive.
How stupid I am.
Be happy there, my stupid old man.
I miss you, Darl.
I always do.
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